well i have no updated in a looooooooong time, not because i haven't had anything to write but simply because i have been feeling lazy and just "eh". i supposed its safe to say i've had my share of emo moments [ i truly believe that wont go away anytime soon, fuck ]
so lets see...a lot has happened since the last post, i turned 23 and i have a crazy ass kick ass barcrawl, i had a lot of naysayers salying nay, lol i had a lot of haters hating, but all in all my birthday barcrawl was a fucken success, it brought people together and created some freaking memories "all the crazy shit wedid tonight, those will always be the best memories" that pretty much sums it up, we were suppose to hit up 4 bars or 5 i cant recall, however i only remember the second one and by the 3rd one i was done...i puked so hard my nose started bleeding, now thats fucken metal right there. [ im at borders writing this and this lady just walked in with a freaking long ass purple fur coat, what the fuck did fucken kill grimace for that coat??? dont get me wrong purple is my favorite color but a freaking purple fur coat???? not even a light lavender type of purple noooo we're talking about full on barney fucked grimace and they had a baby and that baby was a furry ass coat, that kind of purple....man...these eastern european peoples they're nice people don't get me wrong but they have clothes like a fucken dickhead ] i got side tracked sorry lol anywho my bday was awesome, i was really getting worried as my birthday was approaching since its the first birthday in 6 years were i don't have a significant other, and its not because there arent any potential mrs.cool ass yoab, its just because i simply don't feel ready for that, i'm just being honest with myself and with the girls....and this leads me to the main topic of this entry, i guess you can call it main topic since i tend to talk about everything...so lets get started kids
lets start with the topic of girls, lets see, i like girls, i'm in love with girls, i think girls are all pretty in one way or the other, though i'm not gonna lie there are some pretty jacked up girls out there lol, but despite thinking a girl is cute and smart and pretty kick ass, i always, always, always find something wrong, either shes a lying ass triflin hoe, or she plays the good girl card but everyone knows shes been around the block a couple of times, now i'm not claiming i'm perfect, i've been a fucken douche bag, i've been the other guy, i've been on the bad side of the cheating girlfriend equation, all in all i've been all and been through it all, nobody is perfect and everybody has made mistakes, but if you DON'T LEARN from your mistakes than you my friend are a fucken idiot, i've learned what to do and what not to do and they've all been lessons learned the hard way, sometimes i wish i had a big bro who has fucked up and then tells me what to do, but im the oldest and hopefully my lil bro can learn to not do what i did. so my questions is, why can't girls just freaking be honest and keep it real? now i know people can be oblivious to things, because god knows i'm oblivious as shit and i have snoozed on girls that i really liked and fit perfectly but i guess i thought we were only friend? potatoe potato either way is, if you know a guy likes you and im sure its pretty easy to tell when a guy likes you, why not say "hey man i have a bf" or "hey man i kinda just wanna be friend" instead of stringing a guy along? [ btw this has not happened to me, i know when im being stringed along lol, but this happened to a really close friend of mine and i think its fucked up ] so girls out there please, please, please, just keep it real and if you like a nigga just fucken say it! chances are they like you too.
Honesty, now honesty is tricky because it can come and bite you in the fucken ass, i've learned that being honest is the best way to be, and sometimes i may be a little too blunt and honest but it saves me from having drama later and it saves you being misled and it saves both of us from wasting time playing games, if i like a girl i will tell her, because i know im easy to talk to and i get sucked into the shitty blackhole of the friends zone, and theres nothing shittier than being friends with someone you like or wanna bang [ lol ] and the whole "im scared our friendship will go away if we date" is utter bullshit, because if you have a friend who likes you and since he's your friend im assuming he knows all the shit you've done, good and bad, and if he still wants to be your friend than duh wtf? obviously something good is there, the best relationships are the ones that start as friendships, relationships that start right off the bat fail or are built on bullshit, then when you get to know the real person you ask yourself "why the fuck am i dating this person???" i know something similar has happened to me, i like this girl and started talking, then got to know her better and i saw she was a shitty ass person [ lol ] and i thanked myself for trying to be friends first than to go full on and started dating a crappy person.. but que sera, sera and both girls and guys alike will continue to be fucken stupid, its like we're genetically coded to be attracted to bitches and assholes, idk what it is, because im also a victim of that, but why is it that girls seem more interested when i act like an asshole than when i act like a nice guy? shit makes no sense, but then again i don't want a girl who wants to be treated like shit, sorry but no.
now on to the quest of keeping it real, something so SIMPLE yet people find it incredibly hard to do. keepin it real works this way...ready?.....all you have to do is.......KEEP IT FUCKEN REAL, that means be honest, don't play fucken games, say what you feel and what you want, because if you don't articulate your freaking thoughts than how do you expect people to know what the fuck you want? if everyone kept it real, the world would be a great place.....
man this sounds like and angry post lol i think i subconsciously need a gf ....haha...
sooo if you're single [ and i mean single, i don't want to find out 2 weeks later that you have a freaking boyfriend ] educated, can hold a conversation about everything ranging from the jersey shore, to the recent arsenic-biology finding, consider yourself cute [ confidence is the greatest turn on ] and you want to have an awesome and random date with me hit me up 312 -834 23 99
yoabeezy out
p.s. guys with no confidence in themselves are fucken pussies, if i had to choose one of my best traits, i'd have to say is my near arrogant self-confidence, i am my biggest fan, and yet my worst enemy, i don't care what anybody says about me, the only thing i care about is what i think about myself......and believe it or not, guys out there get threatened by it, specially when i'm FRIENDS with their gf's....im FRIENDS you're their BOYFRIEND stop being so fucken unsure about yourself and go get some fucken self-esteem....no one should feel sorry for themselves nor unsure, if you think you're the shit, guess what? you WILL be the shit, if you think your shit then guess what? yup you got it you WILL BE SHIT....
its all about confidence kids, confidence is the panty dropper, confidence is what gets you places, confidence is what makes people trust you and believe you, confidence wins, confidence is champ, confidence will make you or break you.
