road trip to san antonio, new old friend, reality

A lot happened since the last post, most of it good, actually all of it good but just different kinds of good i guess ...here is a hint...i got kind of emo lol... lets start with the beginning ...*magical sounds*

so my JC and i needed to figure out a way to get to our fraternity's national convention in San Antonio, Texas, mind you we are in Chicago..so its quite a drive...so in the grand total of 2 days we set the whole trip. luckily for us the lovely women of SLG from UIC, who also had their convention in San Antonio needed a way there. so we decided to drive together, and since we did not have a room we stayed with them. so you may or may not know JC but let me tell you , he is the coolest guy you'll ever meet, if the dos equis most interesting man in the world and the black dude from the old spice commercials fornicated and created a baby...JC would be that baby...except he'd be a 31 yr old dancing dude, he is the chuck norris of dance. so we pick up the rental car, we got a 2010 gold challenger, then we picked up my bags, then kelly, and the marcy, she made us PB&J sammiches and even had cherries and granola bars the works...she hooked it up...*if u reading this ...ur awesome*

so a little back story here i've known marcy for like idk 4 years? but she's always kind of not liked me or something lol she always cockblocks me lol...she is my personal cockblock. so the trip started with awesome music courtesy of my awesome ipod...we stopped at burgerking to eat...and i had not had a whopper in probably over 6 months, so i had forgotten how huge they were...needless to say i was the last one to finish eating..then again JC is like a food Vacuum cleaner, and kelly and marcy ordered little tiny baby hamburgers.

JC took the first driving shift and he was driving like a grandma...so then i took over cuz i was bored as balls and we were making horrible timing lol after i took over and drove for about 8 hours we had cut our time by 5 hours.....*quick note here ...i dont feel like this post is funny at all ...yet lol * so we stopped in some shit ass gas station in some hick ass state and i swear to baby jesus that shit was swarming with fucken bugs...it was musty as fuck and bugs were everywhere...i got out of the car and a fucken bug got inside my fucken eye!!! ...yes...a bug got inside my eye...i was freaking out bc i had just watched this special about parasites and this one lady had this long ass parasite worm in her eye and it was fucken disgusting ....so while marcy is pumping gas she is freaking out about the bugs and yelling at me to pump the gas....all while im jamming the long thingie on my glasses inside my eye so i can scoop the bug out!....i eventually go the shitty gas station's bathroom and fish the bug out....now im feeling better but im starving...i see they have food and what appears to be fried catfish...so i ask the lady if that was fish and she says "yup you can have it all if you want" free food? fuck yeah im down...so i say "yeah, thanks!" and she gives me a big 'ol box of fried fish...so far this trip is fucken awesome...free food is always awesome...

so we stopped at willie's place and nobody knew who the fuck willie nelson is, like for real?? how do u not know who willie nelson is?? anywho...

so marcy gets to drive the remaining 30 minutes but she also blows dolphin dick at driving and turns those 30 mins into prob like an hour...so we finally get to San Antonio and get the hotel room, we decide to go to the mall buy a beer bong get liquor and start partying it up....lemme tell ya...dat first day we got fucken trashed!! my way of saying hello was shoving a plastic tube in ur mouth and making u chug a beer lol so the whole time...marcy and i are just arguing...about everything and anything...like seriously just fucken fighting...i swear i felt like i was back in a relationship...pointless fight after pointless fight lol but it was all bc idk i guess she hates that she likes me lol story of my life lol

so instead of writing about the whole weekend im just going to summarize the weekend...

• drunjk
• drunk
• dnrfeunk
• drnunkere
• bonding with new old friends

and let me explain about the new old friend thing here, and its because there was a certain friend whom i guess we've always been kind of "eh" to each other and its all because of the ghost of the past, and it really upset me when i found out that if the ghost found out we're friends, the ghost would stop being friends with the new old friend....fucked up but i guess thats life...and i still love the ghost...yeah yeah yeah shut up....so anywho the new old friend is waaaaaay to similar to me...in ways that are really creepy actually, its one of those things were everything just kind of feels normal so its weird? well its that...i was really glad we had a real conversation and the friend got to see me for who i am and for what it was thought i was or what people had made me out to be...and the lesson to be learned here boys and girls is never judge a person by what you've heard about them, nor what their reputation is or w.e....get to know them, and see for yourself, actually have a conversation with them, ask questions, ask why people say what they say about them, and give them a chance to show you who they are. never judge a person...

towards the end of this trip i realized i had gained a small family...a small group that created memories with me, that were there to party with my crazy ass and who we got to bond. so to my San Antonio roadtrip crew...i love you guys....

now back to reality and this is where imma get a little emo so you can stop reading if you want lol

imma keep this short and sweet and just say that seeing pictures of the past, of what used to be, only reminds me of how things were, of how naive and stupid we both were, and how naive and stupid we might still be, we only live once to let stupid little grudges keep us between the people that made a difference in our lives, because ask yourself this question. If the one person who loves you more than anyone died tonight, how would you feel knowing you could have made them happy by just talking to them?....giving them a chance?.....maybe this questions is a portrayal of what i actually feel inside...the anger, feeling powerless, feeling betrayed and what not....and tho i will admit i am still pretty sore and angry....life goes on. so forgive and forget, and like somebody told me "people are not who you thought they were, sometimes we dont see it because we're so busy trying to make them into what we think they are, what we thought they were" and even though i want that person to be the perfect person i thought she was....the reality is....that she isnt.....nobody is......its what makes us human, its what makes us love someone....we don't love their perfection...its simply what we notice...the fact is...that we fall in love with the imperfections, we fall in love with the idea, it blinds us and deprives us from reality......so wake up people and realize that life is too short .....

god that was fucken emo....